I deliberately avoided making my Big Plan too - The thought of 'never' really freaked me out - it was too dam final to comprehend.
It was only when it dawned on me that it was my AV that was freaked out and not me that the penny dropped and I felt I finally got what AVRT was.
It's only when you actually make that Big Plan and really want it that the AV gets rattled and starts acting up big style.
Congratulations on getting well into your second week
