Originally Posted by
jerri11 
It'll be worth it to get to a new "normal" that doesn't involve being trashed all the time.
That's probably part of it, Jerri. I love(d) getting trashed. It was safe, it was what I knew - and I was good at it! This new "normal" that we're working towards is an unknown quantity. How do we know when we get there? Will we like it - and if we do will it last? At least the old normal was predictable and familiar ground.