Thanks for all your kind welcomes and replies. It's helpful to speak to people who know what it feels like. I know 12 days without alcohol now is not that much - but to me it's something I haven't done for about 9 years when I tried AA and stopped for 6 months before deciding that sobriety was just too much to bear!
It seems that the more distance I put between me and the last drink the more I start to question my reasons for stopping! Which is odd cos when I drink I'd do anything to be sober and healthy.
I know it's my AV but it's making me angry - especially when I see people (like my wife) continuing to drink wine every damn night.
I think I understand the AVRT method but It's not quite as simple in practice as it reads - I suppose nothing worth having is easy............. still a bit more time and self development....... and I still have my Big Plan - maybe I should direct my anger at my Beast.