Feel terrible this morning
I don't know what is going on. This morning I just feel terrible emotionally. I had this vague dream about my husband, that I went to see him in the hospital and he just hated me. He didn't say anything, he just looked full of pure and evil hatred. I woke up just sobbing for some reason and haven't stopped since and that was two hours ago. I'm feeling like he abandoned me and I'm sad and angry at the same time. I know I'm the one that filed for divorce but I just am so pi**ed off that I had to take things this far. I'm so freaking angry at him and those freaking drugs. My daughter asked me why I was crying and I didn't have any answer. My patience has been short with my girls I realized this morning. Maybe I'm not doing as good as I thought. What is going on here? I feel so stupid for even caring what is going on with him after all the damage he's done to our family.