30 days sober is 30 days sober. Maybe you will like it enough to go 60 or 90 or forever. What resonates with me from your post is you drinking alone. You drink for increased social confidence, yet you drink alone in front of the tv. That is totally me. I said and did the same thing. I hope the next thirty days help you. You sound like a smart young lady - I hope you can kick this. Hiding bottles in your closet is no way to live.