Welcome, BrightStarr,
I could have written your post almost word for word when I was 23. Unfortunately, I kept drinking instead, and am now 52, with career opportunities gone, health issues and too late now to go back. Don't throw your life away like I did.
It's daunting to think of never drinking again. Just take it day by day for now. There is a 24 hr thread here, where you can commit to staying sober.
The support here is really wonderful, especially if you check in every day.
I'm 30 days sober now, and could not have done that without these good people and this forum.
Glad you posted.