know exactly how your feeling venuscat after years of struggelin with addiction the damage caused seems irreversable.
however we can still improve our situation..yes we have bad days and they seem to go on sometimes...for me I have to accept what i'v done and try not too dwell in that bad place..talk to peole u truly trust,meditate,try to do anything that can take your mind off things for a bit..allways here and wish u all the best x