What to do in a state of anxiety and depression. When most likely there is a physical reason, not only emotional. If neurons are firing and the nervous system is shot it is nearly impossible to fully process any of those traumas and repressed emotions.
What has benefited me the most during my recovery was none else but eliminating caffeine from my diet. I also know that many people get diagnosed with bipolar and other stuff but I never believed this on my part. Meaning that it was a neurological phenomenon caused by booze and caffeine, not much else.
Great job on 10 months Wastinglife. I've noticed that trying something too hard, say that CBT you've been applying might make the stress worse. You know that PAWS is stress-sensitive and so are many other things related to the nervous system, especially recovery. Good luck anyway... hopefully that sorts itself out.