I know everybody is telling me to take care of myself - I"m slowly starting to do this now. Thank God I do have a friend who is a counselor and I will be calling her tomorrow. She herself, had the same issue except her daughter was an alcoholic. She is now clean and hasn't had a drink in one year! And she is getting her degree in Psychology just like her mother.
Thank you all who are sharing your thoughts! It seems I have an extended friends and family now who understands! God Bless you all!