Thank you all very much for the input and encouragement.
I laid in bed last night thinking about how I'm reading but not really participating. I guess you could say I had a moment of clarity. It's time for me to quit my pity party and join the real world. I'm ready to do this once and for all. No more talking about it, now I'm going to put all my efforts into me. You're all right. I can do this!!
I've spent today making sure our house is alcohol free. And I'm not buying anymore no matter what. I'm back at day 1. My LAST day one.
I found a journal I started a few months back and the things I wrote in there made my head spin. My reasons for living sober 100% outweigh anything alcohol could ever give me. I think change scares me sometimes but this is one change I'm looking forward to.
Bye bye alcohol!! This girl doesn't need you anymore!!!
Get used to me because I'm not going anywhere
