The biggie for me is knowing, "I will never be able to drink like other people." Knowing this is not what keeps me sober.
What keeps me sober is the daily commitment to doing what I need to do. It is not the big stuff it is the small. I prayed this morning and I will pray tonight, I went to an AA meeting and spent some time with someone who had only been sober 11 days. I sent a love note to my wife. I didn't walk down the alcohol isle buying groceries. I posted on SR.
None of what I did was in itself enough to keep me sober but when you add it up I will go to bed without having drank