Hey guys, just an update.
After a lot of thought I decided to go back to my doctor and talk about my pain medication. I think it's about reaching the limit I set anyway. I didn't want to increase it but with how awful I've been I have to weigh up the choice between feeling like I did the other day, which was a bit scary now I've had time to consider it and the risk of becoming dependent on the medication.
I knew ultimately the meds will have to be increased, it's just a part of my condition but I'm deeply resistant to it due to my alcohol issue. I really have thought long and hard about it, this seems the best choice for both my general health and continued sobriety.