Yeah, hard time of year. After both of my parents passed it was a bit easier. But it's still a bit of a struggle. As much as I tried to overcome the cycle of expectations, letdown, and reality I realized I failed when my daughter said I always did something to ruin Christmas. I guess I was stuffing things and letting come out sideways looking for the least little thing to set me off. I have worked hard on this but it's not easy.