Hi Wishful, welcome. Well done for reaching out, we are all supportive here and I'm sorry for you pain. I know what it is like to live with an addict.
There are areas for family and friends living with and dealing with addicts and alcoholics, have you had a look at those ?
Friends and Family of Substance Abusers - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information NEW! 12-Step Support for Friends and Family - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Glad you have posted, you will find support here.