Yeah I sort of feel like I can laugh the alcoholic thinking ONLY bc of how crazy I was in responding to it for so long...
My participation in the crazy dance was just as crazy as his...
Justifying my behavior bc of what he did was just as insane as anything he's done...
My behavior meaning calling him endlessly, trying to keep tabs on him and his spending etc...
Just thinking about how insane I was at times makes me anxious...