Wanttobehealthy,
I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved dog. I had to put my 21 year old cat down last year, so I understand what a painful decision that is. My cat was also a reminder of the years spent with AH. I realized that she was there when our relationship began and ended. Many hugs to you; I hope that you can spend part of the day enjoying the good memories that you have with your faithful pet.