Twinkle and Candy, it sounds like both of you are missing the drama and chaos that come with being in a relationship with an alcoholic & codependency. I am 1 month post break up, so I can completely relate. It will take time & support to get past this. Please try Al Anon, counseling, or both. Being in a relationship with an alcoholic damages you more than you can see right now. And continue to come here for support. Sometimes you will not like how brutally honest people can be on here. But they aren't doing it to be mean. They are doing it because they have been there. When I joined this site, I thought MY relationship was different & special, not your typical relationship with an alcoholic. WRONG! The more I read, the more I realized all the relationships are the same. I hope you both continue to find strength on this site.