Originally Posted by
sheblowclouds 
I don't know where to start or what to do what I fear the most is will I succeed?
Oh yes, that was exactly how I felt. I had no idea what succeeding would feel like because I was so used to failing and making a mess of things. It almost felt comfortable. But, early recovery is not comfortable because it's full of changes. The good news is, that you can do this. You can step into the light and recover.