Mako- Thanks for reaching out. You are probably right about everything. Right now all of my old feelings are front and center. My son gets his follow up with the surgeon today and I have seen his latest xrays. I know he is going to need more surgery and I am already burnt out. I need to get away from this stuff. Just for a few hours. But, I cant trust him not to do something stupid. He already has a few times when I have been home and he has hurt himself. Ticks me off but he hates being helpless and feeling like a burden. I have got to get this stuff straightened out. Emotionally I have had enough and I am still facing weeks of recovery for him.