Hopeful I am stashing some. I have a separate checking account as well as an emergency stash as well hidden at home. I have just felt free and empowered the last few days and it has been such a blessing to know the kids and I are ok in spite of my AH. Thank you Firesprite and Sungrl for the kind words. It was so great being able to take the kids out and know I had the cash. My AH is beside himself right now because he did not get the results he expected and doesn't know what to do now. Detachment is such a blessing!!! The "honeymoon" stage of his cycle has vanished as he was not getting the results he expected so now we are starting the mean downward spiral. All I can hope for now is to get some audio of the abuse to use when I leave for custody purposes as my kids do not want him to get 50% custody that is the norm in my state.