Originally Posted by
Kiya 
EJM that sounds completely terrifying I'm glad to see you back in one piece though. When you fall and get back you you need to try and reassess the situation with what you've learned. What do you feel that you need to change vs the last time in order to best equip yourself for making it through?
I know that I can never let my guard down. That even after years of sobriety I will still have to wake up and make a conscious decision to not drink. One of the biggest things I know I will have to do is change my lifestyle, a lot of friends must be let go. No one ever pressures me to drunk, but they have no interest in not drinking around me. How do I do this without offending? I'm so embarrassed to look like someone who is so out of control that she can't be social. I'm typically the poster child for control. People who have no issues with alcohol control don't understand that after one drink I am no longer in control.