Guilty Feeling About Having a Drink
Since I've left xabf, I've been invited to go out with friends for a drink a few times. I'm invited to go to a wine festival this saturday and spend the night at a lake house with some girlfriends. I told them I was going, but I'm scared.
Firstly, I don't want to tell xabf. My mom will be watching dd. He would see it as an opportunity to come snatch her up.
Secondly, I feel like I am being hypocritical. I do not plan on going down to the festival and getting smashed. But how do you feel okay about having a few drinks with friends without thinking about the a's in your life?
Most of me knows that what I am doing is different, its not a reoccuring thing, its something fun to do with friends and it doesn't have the same goal as when my ex drinks.
Does anyone else get that guilty feeling? I don't typically drink, maybe once or twice a month, since I started detaching from xabf.