53500 and Santa - congrats on coming out the other side! That gives me so much hope :-) I'm literally focusing on one day at a time - really just one moment at a time - but woke up today feeling a bit less angry.
As many posters suggested, I am trying to sit with the uncomfortable feelings. I did scream as loud as I could in my apartment yesterday - I didn't realize the windows were open but thankfully nobody called the police!!! (guess that is an everyday noise here in nyc!) Note to self - make sure to do this in a sound-proof room in the future.
Also, I decided I am going to paint the inside of his closet pink. :-) I am reclaiming what used to be his space and making it all MINE. I also adopted a kitty 2 weeks after he left and put her bed near where he used to like to sit in the apartment - he was allergic to cats so I have particularly enjoyed seeing her occupy what used to be his space...