Thanks to everyone. I have been reading a lot of posts in SR today. My commitment is always strong in day 1, what worries me is the future, when I start feeling that maybe I can drink moderately. I know I probably can't but it all looks different when the memory of my last hangover is not fresh. I know in AA they dont worry that much about the future (e.g. one day at a time). However, given that I don't drink everyday and I am more of a weekend binger I HAVE to worry about the future.
Anyways, while reading I had an idea. Helping others might help me stay on track. I am probably at a point where I need more help than I can give. However, just sharing thoughts can help some people. Cecilia said to post often and I intend to do that. I hope I won't fall again, but either good or bad news, I will share with you the highlights of this new journey.
Thanks you all!