I don't think it's easy for anyone...certainly wasn't for me.
I remember nights circled up into a ball on my bed fighting the urge to go and get booze.
I spent a lot of time here too - helping others helped me see what I needed to do too.
It's not easy - but if you really want to change it's really the only way to go.
If you find yourself drinking again I think it's fair to ask what else should I be doing - what other things can I add?
what is my emergency strategy like - when the urge hits do I think about ways to stop myself - do I reach out for help.... or do I just abandon myself to the urge?
I've spent the weekend rescuing my PC from screens of death...it's sometimes a meticulous procress but piece by piece, programme by programme, component by component, you can get things back to a working, stable, non-crashing state.
Recovery is a lot like that
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