Been there got the T-Shirt, hated life, hated myself, didn't want to feel anything, feelings, emotions, all too painful, enter alcohol, my best friend would numb it all away and it did for years!!
My point is, everything you say you need alcohol for is a myth, life can be conducted successfully without alcohol, SR is full of people who have successfully figured out how to deal with life without drinking!!
Dealing with life with alcohol, will eventually take your life if not kept in check, the body can only take so much, 8am drinking as I mentioned is not a sustainable way forward, there has to be another way, and there is!!
You just have to want it and try it out, why accept anything less for your life?!!
