Hello and welcome.
I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and have had panic attacks since my teens. I know where you're coming from.
I drank for twenty years to keep the anxiety at bay. Of course, all the heavy drinking made my anxiety unbearable the next day. I was in such a state of overwhelming anxiety after a binge once that I hid in a closet. I used to drink before work to make it though. Of course all the drinking turned me into an alcoholic.
Some people don't understand the condition and put the cart before the horse.
If you're like me, stopping drinking won't stop the anxiety.
I had to see a psychiatrist to finally get relief. I'm now on medication for anxiety and I've got my life back.
it really is a vicious cycle-drinking to stop the anxiety only to have it worse the next day.
I was a very heavy drinker, and once I got sober and got help things improved dramatically.
There is hope for people like us. You have to seek it out, though, which it sounds like you're willing to do.
Perhaps you can see a psychiatrist or counselor? I think t would help greatly. If you have insurance, it may even cover it.
I understand where you're coming from and you are not alone.