Confused
Not really a question here I just need to unload. I don't understand why the non drinking people in my life really don't seem to want to do anything. They didn't know me as a drinker an I've tried hard to reconnect. It's always left with "we need to do this or that" and never any follow thru. They are all so busy with their families and lives it seems as if no one has time.
My drinking friends (that don't have the issues that I do with alcohol) always seem to have time and are ready to hang out or do stuff. With or without alcohol.
I have mended the relationship with my boyfriend but realized Sunday that I would rather be at home than his house. I don't understand why I feel that way. I read a thread that someone posted about being codependent. I wonder if perhaps when I was actively drinking if perhaps I felt he was "safe" because he knows my drinking issues and has his "under control". He's an alcoholic who doesn't realize it and only binges now every few weeks. He drinks beer which doesn't tempt me at all!!! So if he were to drink around me it wouldn't matter.
I'm sure my confusion is part of my brain detoxing but I don't understand things at this time. Guess this is also why one day at a time is a good practice to follow.