Originally Posted by
Nonsensical 
Welcome to SR A.M.
Probably out of habit. A 20-year pattern is fairly well ingrained. Time to make a new pattern. Say "no" to that offered drink a few times and it gets easier and easier every time.
You can do this.
Thanks. Yeah it's exactly what I've started thinking. I've programmed my mind real good with this pattern. It's almost what I expect...so enevitably it repeats itself. This negative pattern needs to be broken. It needs to be a full on goal to break this pattern completely and move my life forward...and forward....instead of back down.