30th birthday and itching for that "high" already
Well today is going to be ROUGH. It's my 30th birthday and at 8:45 in the morning I'm already going out of my mind wanting to get ****** up beyond all belief. I honestly don't know how to "celebrate" a birthday without getting drunk as hell and snorting up all the pills I can get my hands on. I know I can't throw my 67 days of clean time away but holy crap I want to. I honestly wish I could just sleep all day and have this day over with already. Gotta keep strong and clean today and not relapse. Well off to an interesting and rough day...