It just cuts you to the core, doesn't it? The thought of my loved one in any pain, hurting, dying is my worst fear... and like everyone says..I didn't cause it, I can't control it and I can't cure it.. and I want to scream back at them and say that there has to be a better answer...but I know by his past actions that this is so true. If you could love someone to death, he'd already be dead....
My thoughts are with you... You are a good person..