Thanks for your message Mims. It's comforting to share common experiences. I too have learned so much about this anxiety of mine that has likely always been there but made worse when using alcohol to soothe it. Panic and anxiety attacks have become old hat to me now that I've lived through so many and have developed the tools to deal with them. It's still not very nice when they happen though. And I know that my greatest challenge moving forward will be to change my ways....to stop being so hard on myself day to day and be more at peace in my head... btw what is AV?