Originally Posted by
deanyya 
I hate that I keep my addiction a secret from my family... I was wanting to talk about it soon but ... I feel like I can not let them down. I am the ... and very .. but I struggle with alcoholism. And nearly no one knows. I call myself a closet alcoholic. Anyone else relate?
Apologies for my selective editing, but yes I relate to this. I feel like admitting I am an alcoholic or have a problem with alcohol is dragging other innocent people down with me. I feel like I am burdening them with my problem. I feel like my life has a lower priority and is less important them theirs. And so I struggle alone.
This feeling can keep you from reaching out for help. I know that not everyone you reach out to can or will want to help, but I am finding it necessary to work through those feelings and reach out. I am still very selective about who I reach out to, though.