Why not quit so you can truly enjoy life?
Quit to be healthy - no matter how fit if your consuming a lot of alcohol that is not healthy.
By stating your are not an easy person to live with you are giving yourself a pass on your behavior. Why not change?
I got sober at 24 for almost a year. Then I rationalized I did not have a problem and went back out for the next fifteen. Life can be dramatically different based on the choices we make.