glad you're feeling better today Opi. and i really like you're zero acceptance scenario!!!
just wanted to share my experience with Wellbutrin and i encourage you to go with your instincts on what you believe about it. i took it to quit smoking after a heart attack. worked like a fricken charm for that.
then one day on the way home from work on the highway i was passing a semi and thought - if i just turn my wheel into it everything would be over. whoa! where did that come from?!?! scared me really bad. it was suicidal ideation caused by the Wellbutrin. i was not depressed, i was doing well and then a medication i'm on throws a thought like that at me?
hope i'm not crossing lines sharing that but i just wanted to say - trust your instincts. i won't take anything that is in that family of medications.....
sending light and love and wishing you all the best. you can do this. you can have your life back. i just know it.