Hi Lionhearted. Good to hear from you.
It's never too late to lose everything. I once had it made too. I kept going with my drinking until I managed to sabotage myself, despite swearing I'd never let it go that far. Don't forget that 'hitting bottom' for some can mean death. I hope you'll find a way to stop the behavior that is obviously making you miserable. If there's no joy or happiness in it, why continue? It doesn't sound like you're enjoying all that money you're making. I'm glad to see you posting.