Hi lionhearted sounds like alcohol has definatly got the better of you like it did me at one point I didn't care if I died I was truly lost and alone and i didn't care
Then I nearly died for real twice .... Still carried on drinking ... Death wish ?
Lion something happened 1 morning I sort of woke up and then I was fighting all these thoughts and feelings and to this day I'm still fighting well not fighting but you catch my meaning
I am 13 months sober and in 14 days I'll be 14 months sober for the first and hopefully last time in my life