I took drugs to increase my ability to drink alcohol.
Without alcohol, the "effect" of those drugs left me perplexed as to what the attraction was.
Same.... But different.
Doesn't matter what it is we use or prefer, we all do it for the same reason.
It shuts up that committee meeting in our heads, the internal mental struggle.
We feel a connection to the world, it's not such an insane place anyone, our troubles melt away.
All is well.... Until the next day or till the substance / booze wears off.
What lengths are you prepared to go to this time?
Sincerely and truly had enough with every fibre of your being?