Originally Posted by
MIRecovery 
We alcoholics are a lovable lot until you come to realize that we are far more in love with alcohol than the people who love us. As in all relationships 3 is a crowd. I am very sorry you had to discover this the hard way. Unfortunately his first love is drinking and you are along for the ride as long as you don't interfere. Maybe someday he will sober up but until that day a relationship with an alcoholic has very few positives.
You can forgive him but you deserve so much more
I was a drunk before I met my exbf almost 4 years ago and I was drunk through the entire relationship, came to realize I loved wine more than him. Came to realize in Sobriety that I never really was in love, but part of me did care for him. Imagine if I married him and then sobered up. ::SHRUDDER::.....to realize you were never in love with someone. How do you reconsile that?
Play this tape through, carefully. It seems you already have your answer, though. God bless you.
Bunnez