Ejm, there is no shame in relapsing. I beat myself up something terrible say I quit, gave up the fight,ect-- every time I'd drink. It's a fight to be sure, but never ever feel like you're alone cause you're not. All these ppl on here are right in there with you, me included. Dust yourself off and be thankful you've got a mind and a will to live sober and do it again. You can do it. I'm living proof you can. Never thought I'd be looking at 60 days sober. Never. I'm not proud. I'm thankful. You'll get it. Not easy but you'll get it.