Yeah I'm bad with the self-judging too... its amazing how important self-care is, the effects of codependency are so pervasive. I'm working thru my 4th step writing using the Blueprint book. Just last week I started realizing how passive-aggressive I've been for so long.
I really do need to do a deeper sit-down w/ my sponsor, probably once the beach season is over- he has a house down there he's gone every weekend... So we touch base by phone and I run stuff past him at least. Got his marching orders though wrt his preferred statute of limitations for a 10th step vs something that will show up as a formal 9th- cool.
I'm starting to wonder how normies can survive in this world... is it like babes in the woods or is it just me susceptible to every bit of crazy that drifts thru my brain lol