More nasty phone calls from another of my mother's friends last night (voice mail, I wouldn't answer). They were on the edge of harassment - lots of swear words, threatening to call the cops on me and call my work. It's amazing how quickly I can feel like a horrible person just because someone screams it at me. My daughter and S/O heard the calls and were outraged, my daughter called her and it ended up my mother called my daughter back apologizing. Heading to a counselor tomorrow to figure out how to deal with all this negativity. Won't call my mother until I speak with a professional, it's too confusing and I need help working through it. However, one thing it did was to solidify my knowledge that even if it means a group of people will regard me as a horrible human being and hate my guts, it will be better than the alternative. Thanks for letting me vent!