It seems your husband is constantly spewing nonsense at you. I am afraid he has you so beat down and defeated that you don't even fight for yourself or your son anymore. Every time he does this you seem to turn it around and accept it because you feel you are at fault as well. Like you are saying "Well I'm not perfect either." You are not a selfish bullying drunk Liz. I have read some of your story and I feel this has gone on for years. Why do you continue to put yourself and your son through this? hugs, I feel so bad for you both.