I lost count of my how many day ones I went through. But I was determined to beat alcohol. Never give up Girl you can do this. There is light at the end of the tunnel, nothing can be more certain. Exercise is a great tool and SR as well. You need support and to know that you’re never alone in your journey. AA is a great resource to obtain that support. I would also suggest trying to avoid situations were alcohol is present during the beginning of the road the to an amazing life beyond our wildest dreams. Sorry to hear about your Mom. Get up and dust yourself off and give it a sober life a chance, you can do it and you will never have any regrets to your decision!!!!