Hi Bella, I am tearing up as I read this. I was in your shoes and I too had to just walk away for my own sanity. After 4 years I just knew it was time to let go. The drugs and booze won. All we can do is hope and pray they find a way back. My thoughts are with you. I have cried a million tears, For me, for him , for us, for everyone who is caught up in this hell. It will get better, I promise. One day at a time.