I know it really hurts and nothing will change that except the time to heal. I don't think you are giving up...I think you are giving him the dignity to make his own decisions on what he wants and how to get there without giving him ultimatums and pleas and threats that just result in sadness and frustration for both of you. And you haven't given up on loving and taking care of yourself by doing something that hurts but in the long run will help you to explore all the wonderful things your life has to offer you! You are a strong and awesome person and you will get through this!