Late in responding to this.
He said all the right words that broke me down and I gave him another chance.
This is a variant of denial, one of which most of us have been guilty of from time to time. This is the heart overruling the head, even though the head knows everything that it needs to do to make good decisions.
Been there, done that, and paid a huge price in the first half of 2012.
My mind is blown at how it turned around at me to make me feel like I ask for too much. He says he gives me love, which yes he does... And makes me feel guilty. But at this point he is in serious debt of showing me he cares with all the lies and hurt he has caused me.
This is textbook manipulation, something that addicts are exceeding good at. Again, you're not allowing your head to know what it needs to know.
And if you're willing to put up with this sort of bullsh*t, this will continue unabated.