Hey Cindy
For me, I know that by responding I am going to hurt even more and prolong my recovery… I had to make a decision to either continue living in hell/fear, or start a new healthy life for myself… Some of the things I have been doing is calling my Alanon program friends, attending a lot of Alanon meetings, sharing about it, posting on here for support, reading literature and past posts from others that have shared their story and I have really been praying asking my HP for help… It’s not easy, but I know it’s what I have to do if I want to heal… Are you in Alanon by any chance??