Good for you to put a foot forward in reclaiming your life - kids will appreciate more than you know. My nonusing daughter told me just the other day how much she hated her sister my AD " not because she is an addict but because what she has done to you Mommy and our family" I know in her heart it isn't true hate but just anger fear and sadness all balled up into one but it made me realize how vitally important it is to resume "life" in the family and not allow the continued addict empowerment to take over. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.