glad you posted bennevisgal. many here have felt much the same as you at one point or another. keep posting - especially when you are feeling down. lot's of good folks here. whether or not you are into AA I would consider going to meet some people. Not everyone in AA is a radical, some are just kooks like me.
I'm going to an AA group picnic this afternoon just to hang out with other sober people for a change. You can always post here at any time, we're always open.